Tomorrow

this. is what ive been writing for the last six months.
this. is what im gonna have to defend. by tomorrow.

Wish me luck. :) *nervous smile

story from a messenger

So. After an hours of thinking. I finally realize. This isn't jealousy, its not even something lame called 'love'. Its about how I hate him so much. Jujur saya menikmati setiap tangisannya untuk saya, I like that. Rasanya seperti, "Nah.. Ini lho rasanya. Rasakan?". I just simply don't want him to be happy. Period.

But that'd be wrong.
I kept this in my mind, for years. About how I want to ruin his life. A revenge. But then I was thinking "If I hate him so much. Why bother still kept him in my thought?"

A couple days ago, when I was in Thailand. I remembered the road we've walked through, the beach, the seven eleven store, this thought slipped through my mind real fast. So I've decided to bring him something. As for now, right at this time, me writing this and starring at the things I bought for him, seriously I feel like an idiot. Haha! What the fuck am I doing?

But it is? Maybe its just a disappointment. My dissapointment. That now i know there wont any even one good reason to stay. All the good reason were gone. Of course he never change. At all. So I said, thanks for the five years of shit. Really taught me how to behave. I have made up my mind. I really should letting go this anger, this disappointments, this hopes and useless dreams.

Lets just live for today and tomorrow and after. No more anguish. That's it.

It's because I like you, I don't want to be with you. It's a complicated emotion. –Marlin (Finding Nemo)

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to the sunny side of the city

This was my 2nd time in Phuket Thailand, therefore i wont be write much. Here just some photos i took and a lil bit stories behind it. I wrote my itenerary for backpacker kere like me haha -> click here. Its gonna be a long post full with photos and videos. So yeah.. ive warned you. :)


Nanai Rd. Phuket Thailand. One of the street for entering the famous Bangla Rd


Buddha quotes. Taken from The Big Buddha. Quite impressive.


Me with one of the monk. I was standing too close to him and he took a few step back sheer off me.
Haha! (Bukan muhrimnya)


A hardcore monk, his head got inked!





Kata Beach on extremely sunny day.
Did i say sunny? No its. SUNNIES. Plural. Where i got my worst sunburn.



The most important of the 29 buddhist temples of Phuket, Wat Chalong.
Located in the tambon Chalong, Mueang Phuket district.
It is dedicated to two highly venerable monks, Luang Pho Chaem and Luang Pho Chuang, who with their knowledge of herbal medicine helped the injured of a tin miners rebellion in 1876.



and of course.. Maya Bay


You know how sometimes a photo can be very tricky. So here's a video.






and these are... the shit that made me gain 3kg in a week.


What to do in beach : Drinking and watching people do stupid thing like.. flying.


a beggar, with a Thai flag in her wheel chair. How loyal?


ok. All me. From 500 photos i only have about 10 photos of me. These are the best, taken by my dad. -_-